Whats the word, doubts and dishonesty

Doubts, everyone has them so why should I be so different? For instance, I doubt if anyone actually reads this, I doubt that I will be getting a significant enough raise at work, and I doubt if I will ever be free to love or be loved by the one I want. Like the almighty Joe Dirt says "You can't have no in your heart brother." As much as I try I always find myself seeing little reminders of the old times, little hints and notes, little gifts and trinkets, and it makes me realize that I need to either get over it or move on. So what should I do? Here is the six million dollar question. Why after months of writing new stuff almost on a nightly bases do I have a sudden case of writers block? Have I lost my inspiration, has my muse abandoned me? Well we will give it a shot I'm going to attempt to write a poem right here right now. This is going to be such an exclusive I haven't even seen it yet. I will stop when i'm stuck there will be no editing or polishing of any sort I will keep typos, grammatical errors, and even all out terribleness just to see if I still got it. So I beg of you, if you do read this I need you more than ever to post a comment or reaction to this, this goes to anyone from my follower to the random person that happens to stumble across this page.

Sleepless

Waking in a cold sweat I turn to my clock, 4:15am is what it reads.
Rampant thoughts of things to come run through my head. Will we ever be alone,
will our time to shine ever come? I know as long as we are living and breathing our love will never grow weak, but will we ever have the opportunity to see it grow at all? Nightmares of a life I may never have come flooding in my head as soon as my eyes close so I sit awake to tired to cry, to scared to sleep. Will I ever know how it feels to feel your embrace, will our future shine as bright as any star or will it fizzle out like the end of a match......


That's about all I have in me. More rants to come, more raves to be said tune in next time for another exciting adventure of whats the word brought to you by me.